My Birthday Gift To Myself!

I turned 33 today and decided that I am going to set a new year's (of life) resolution for myself.  While it won't be easy, I have decided that for my 33rd birthday I am resolving to lose 33 pounds...yikes!  You probably assume that Cake Mom was my first blog; however, I actually began blogging on a site you probably forgot exists thanks to Facebook: Myspace (blast from the past, right).

I began blogging in 2005 to help me get motivated to lose weight. I figured if I posted my weight for all of the world to see it would be a big motivator to lose. It did work! I lost almost 30 pounds and then my father died unexpectedly and I lost all motivation to lose weight. 

Here is my very first blog post ever direct from my old Myspace page. In red parentheses are my 2012 updates, which are a bid depressing:

Heres the thing, when I went to high school, I thought myself to be fat...I weighed like 110 pounds. I look back on those pictures now and realize that I looked like "skelator". For those of you men reading this, you may not understand that when a woman looks in the mirror, there is always something you want to lift, tuck, or separate. Most of us are never quite happy. Now, two kids later, I can look into the mirror and see A LOT that I want to lift, tuck and separate!

When I got pregnant with my son 3 (8) years ago, I was in the best shape of my life. I weighed 130 pounds, fit into a size 4 and was toned and healthy. After I had him, I quickly lost the weight...then started putting some back on. By the time I got pregnant with my daughter, I weighed 150...still not bad, but I played mind tricks with myself. See, I knew I was going to get pregnant and knew that my body would end up putting a sumu wrestler to shame, so I did not focus too much emphasis on getting into shape. With my first pregnancy I gained 40 pounds, with the last it was over 60! Needless to say, I was over 200 pounds before giving birth and literally as big as a house. And now, I am suffering and am having a heck of a hard time losing the weight.

So, I am daring to go where very few women dare to go. I am going to blog my weight loss struggles, and hopefully successes. I am going to ,GULP, reveal my weight (which only my husband up until now was privy to). I am going to ask others for their help and support. This way, I have to answer to others...I can share my progress and have to live with the shame if I fail (and if I fail, it is my fault and I will admit it). So here I go, today is a new day and I will try my best, because that is all I can do.

Current weight: 165 (God that was hard to type in, and I am sure I will sit here for awhile contemplating if I REALLY want to post this or not!) (177) - Damn it! Shoot me now!!

Goal for the next week: I am giving up chocolate for lent (1 week...after today because it is my birthday!). I will exercise at least 4 times this week for at least 30 minutes each time (This is an accomplishment because, after all, I do work full time and have 2 children and a husband who need my attention too!) Not to mention my bad back and hips...getting older really sucks!

 I am going to chronicle my weight loss journey through some "weight loss Wednesday" posts. I know I typically only do product reviews and giveaways, but I have such great readers and could really use your support. Wish me luck!